Too Much Change!

I am someone who likes change.  I like new places, new foods, new arrangements for my furniture, etc. But I can't stand disorganization, it's too much for my ADD mind to process. Organized change may sound like an oxymoron but it's not really.  I can usually control the new places to visit, new foods to try and I've reorganized, reshuffuled and moved the furnture in my house so often that the change isn't really all that surprising. But now, in my little world there is disorganized change and, even though I've agreed to some of it (and even requested some of it), it's making me slightly crazy.

 Five years ago we were blessed enough to be able to purchase a summer place in a bucolic location next to a peaceful river.  The house is a mishmash of eras beginning in 1828 with the last addition being constructed in 1978.  We love the house, but...

1. My husband spends every weekend here fixing the latest "old house issue"
2. There is no central heat or air.  It's okay duiring the summer when we can cool the place fairly well (summer days here tend to run 80-90% humidity) with window unit a/,but there are not enough portable heaters in the world to heat it's cold floors once the temperatures dip into the 40's at night.
3. We are totally underwater loan wise.  While we didn't buy at the top of the market, we did buy before the economy tanked in 2008. We have found ourselves in the position of either having to improve the property with hopes of someday selling it or walk away and default on our loan. 

Hence new construction.  Very exciting in theory, but in addition to homeschooling three kids, entertaining a 4 month old puppy and keeping life in general going in the right direction (clean laundry, semi-nutriious meals at semi-regluar intervals, a quick vaccum now and again, library books returned within at least two weeks of their due date, etc...) it feels very much like disorganized change.

I know this is only a season. I know I will be thrilled with the end results. I know it is the best decision and course of action.  But aaarrrgghhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!...................My yard is a mess, the dog can't be let out on her own as she is in the way of the construction and she always comes in covered in mud, the whole process is a major distraction for homeschooling.

Big, deep breaths.....